Monday, March 16, 2009


Eli was taken off the respirator this afternoon. That was about an hour and a half ago. He's struggling quite a bit, so there's very real concern that he'll have to be re-intubated. His voice doesn't work yet, but he's constantly crying... a silent cry, but his face still shows the struggle all too well.

This is pretty hard to endure. I just want to do something, but I can't. A lot of you have made comments to us about our strength. It's now that we realize our strength was based around how well he has been doing. Now, with struggle in our face, it's not so easy to be upbeat. This isn't a life threatening situation. Worst case, they'll just have to put the respirator back in and try again another time. Still, it's agonizing to watch him struggle so much.

As I've been writing this, they took another blood-gas test, and his numbers aren't as good as they were an hour ago. They're checking oxygen levels in the blood, among other things. They also gave him some sedatives to calm him a little, and they're going to re-test his blood-gas in another 15 minutes to monitor the trend.

Please pray that God would allow Eli the strength to continue breathing on his own. Please also pray that our desires don't clash with God's plan.


Anonymous said...

I cant begin to imagine how hard this day must be for you. May God continue to give you strength, and Eli stay on the road to recovery. I love you all.

your sister

Bonnie said...

Dear Tanya and Jason,

Our hearts aches for you as you watch little Eli and carry this burden. We pray that you continue to know you are walking in His will. Remember, the Will of God will not take you where the Grace of God cannot keep you.

Lamentations 3:22-24 The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. "The LORD is my portion," says my soul,"therefore I will hope in him."

Loving and Praying for you,

Bonnie and Tony

The Favelos said...

I AM SO SORRY! That must be SO hard to watch. I can't imagine. That little silent cry is a terrible thing on a parent. I am sorry that he wasn't ready.

I will pray for peace, comfort, strength, and assurance in God's perfect will and timing.